– My earliest memory is my father hitting my mother in the
face as hard as he could and I remember seeing her on the floor and then looking at
him, this giant of a man who I thought, my god,
he says he loves her. What is he going to do to me? And all I could think was
how I want to protect her, how to protect her, and how long it was, and I said I got to be strong and I got to get strength
so that I can protect her and every time he came
home we were scared. We didn’t know, I literally wet the bed ’til I was 14 years old because I didn’t know
what was gonna happen. I would wake up to glass breaking, sounds, people screaming
and it was a nightmare. We lived a nightmare for years and I remember my mother
coming into our room and saying we’re leaving, pack our stuff, we’re out of here, and we
would grab everything we had, we would put it in garbage
bags and we’d tie it up and we’d wait to go. Then she’d come back in
and she’d say we can’t go. We can’t leave, where am I gonna go? And I just remember feeling
like, let’s go anywhere. I don’t care, we could be on the street. But she couldn’t do it. And he went on, terrorizing
us, terrorizing us forever. And it was like, what could we do? You have to understand that
people in this situation feel entirely hopeless, hopeless. We were hopeless. So many days, I thought,
I’ll never be like that. I’ll never do that but then
I picked up a lot of other damaging things that
come from that trauma, a lot of other things
that had been assimilated into my life here as a
man, I felt like, hey, it’s my way or the highway. I remember times with my daughter Azriel and I would yell at her as if
she was a thirty year old man. I constantly apologize,
constantly call them and say I’m sorry, I’m sorry, daddy didn’t get it. Daddy missed it, and that woke me up. It woke me up, it was this
catalyst that changed my life forever, because here I
was, a very successful man, very successful but
what we have to realize is that success is the
warmest place to hide. Does not matter what you
look like, it doesn’t matter. Anyone anywhere can be victimized and no man, woman or
child should ever put up with being treated as less
than a human being ever. How did we get that far off? When people are looking the other way. When the whole thing is geared
where you can’t ask for help or you are gonna lose your job. Or if you bring it up, how in the world are you gonna afford an attorney in order to fight this case? You need three things
in order to come forward with a lot of your damage and
things that happened to you. You need distance
emotionally, you need distance financially and you need
distance physically. Coming out with your story is probably one of the hardest things
ever and this is one thing I love about what Saving Horizon provides, is a safe haven, is a place to go, the services that you
need, and I’m telling you, this is more valuable. This is more valuable. I’m promoting movies, TV
shows, the whole thing, but I wanna talk about this. I wanna talk about this,
because it’s fixable. Understand, this is something
that we can be deeper with. This is the deal, we have to speak up. You can see it but you have to show people you are changing the world.